After She Fell for Me, I Lost My Memory (GL) - Chapter 14

In that moment, Jian Mu seemed fragile, as if a gentle push from Cen Luo would cause her to shatter like a porcelain doll hitting the floor.

The last time Cen Luo had seen Jian Mu like this was three years ago.

It was the night of Cen Luo’s university graduation. Many classes were having farewell dinners organized by the class committee.

The graduation ceremonies for the journalism and mathematics departments were not on the same day. Based on the time of Cen Luo’s flight, the mathematics department’s graduation would start around the time she returned to Mian City.

Perhaps this would be the last time they saw each other.

That’s what Cen Luo had thought.

But Cen Luo didn’t expect the mathematics department’s graduation dinner to be moved up, and coincidentally, it was held at the same hotel as the journalism department’s dinner.

So when she saw Jian Mu at the hotel entrance, Cen Luo was both surprised and hesitant.

From high school to university, seven years had passed. It wasn’t a very long time, but for those seven years, her heart was completely devoted to Jian Mu.

It was a fake story that she wasn’t sad about their relationship coming to an end.

After all, she had spent so much time loving one person.

But more than her sadness, Cen Luo was worried about who would be there for Jian Mu in the long years to come.

After she left, would Jian Mu return to the state she was in during her first year of high school?

Coming and going alone, with no friends and no love.

Or would she meet someone else who would make her want to change and be happy ever after?

Both options would make Cen Luo sad.

But between the two, Cen Luo hoped that Jian Mu would meet someone who could make her happy.

A long time from now, news of Jian Mu wouldn’t reach her ears, and whether she was happy or sad would have nothing to do with her.

She might remember her by chance and feel down for a bit, but she would no longer have the heart to chase her.

That’s what Cen Luo thought, and that was her plan.

But she hadn’t expected to run into Jian Mu on her last day.

She thought that she should go over and say hello.

But she was leaving tomorrow. If she went over to see her now, she wouldn’t want to leave tomorrow.

Worried that she wouldn’t want to leave due to her attachment, Cen Luo stopped in her tracks, less than a meter away from Jian Mu.

Just let it go.

Everyone should have a new life.

The hotel’s first floor was divided into two areas, one for the mathematics department and one for the journalism department.

Since they were different departments from the same university, they were both friendly with each other and wanted to compete with each other.

In a short while, both sides were having a blast.

People were confessing, and people who were sad to leave were hugging and crying.

Cen Luo deeply felt the atmosphere of graduation season.

But amidst all the laughter and tears, only Jian Mu sat in a corner drinking alone.

The dishes on the table were all spicy, and there were many wine bottles in front of her.

She drank every toast that was given to her.

Jian Mu had a good tolerance for alcohol, but her stomach wasn’t good.

The pain in her stomach came before the drunkenness.

But what did that have to do with Cen Luo, who was about to leave?

Cen Luo sat there and observed Jian Mu for a long time. She was as quiet as ever, and her expression didn’t change much.

It seemed that the only thing she cared about was drinking.

Cen Luo couldn’t describe her feelings, but she knew that night, every time Jian Mu drank a cup, she would also drink a cup.

Cen Luo didn’t have a high tolerance for alcohol, and after a few cups, she couldn’t take it anymore.

She had never seen Jian Mu drink like this before, as if something was heavily weighing on her mind.

She really wanted to go to Jian Mu and ask her what was wrong, what was making her drink cup after cup, completely ignoring her stomach.

But Cen Luo thought about how she was leaving tomorrow and that she had no right to care about Jian Mu.

Let her be.

To get rid of the feeling of drunkenness, Cen Luo went to the garden behind the hotel.

There was a swing set there. Cen Luo sat there and thought for a while, wondering if she should change her flight.

It wouldn’t be too late to leave after watching the mathematics department’s graduation ceremony.

This thought only lingered in her mind for a few seconds.

Cen Luo hadn’t expected to see Jian Mu, who had also come out for a walk, in the garden.

Next to the swing set was a bench. Jian Mu sat there, looking at her.

Cen Luo didn’t speak. She just met her gaze and stayed quiet, just like her.

“Are you leaving?”

After a long time, Jian Mu suddenly spoke.

That was the most gentle voice Cen Luo had heard from Jian Mu in years.

Maybe it wasn’t gentle; it just sounded gentle to her.

Because Jian Mu actually knew she was leaving.

Cen Luo didn’t know who had told her the news. Cen Luo had only told Qin Ran that she was going back to Mian City.

But Qin Ran would definitely not tell Jian Mu the news.

“Yes, my flight is tomorrow.”

Cen Luo didn’t say where she was going. She just answered Jian Mu’s question.

Jian Mu didn’t even say “oh.” She just stared intently at Cen Luo.

In that dark garden, only lit by a few dim yellow lights, Cen Luo once again saw a sense of loneliness in Jian Mu.

In the moment Jian Mu stared at her, Cen Luo felt a sense of heartbreak in her eyes.

It was as if Cen Luo had done something terrible to hurt her.

At that time, Cen Luo really wanted to remind Jian Mu that she was the one who never accepted her.

But before Cen Luo could speak, she saw Jian Mu, who had been sitting straight on the bench, suddenly curl into a ball.

With just a little thought, Cen Luo knew that Jian Mu must have drunk too much alcohol, which hurt her stomach, and now she was in pain.

Jian Mu held her head and hugged her legs on the bench, like an abandoned stray dog.

At that moment, Cen Luo suddenly remembered Jian Mu sitting by the sea all night.

She was so lonely it was heartbreaking.

That feeling made Cen Luo feel breathless.

Maybe I’ll just stay with her for a little longer.

This thought grew like a weed in her mind.

Cen Luo went to the kitchen, poured a glass of hot water, and handed it to Jian Mu, who was sitting on the sofa.

She said she would only hug her for a little while, and she meant it.

She only hugged Cen Luo for less than a minute at the door and then let go.

She only left a single sentence: “Let’s go home.”

Cen Luo was used to this side of Jian Mu, so she didn’t find anything strange at the time.

If anything was strange, it was Jian Mu’s sudden hug.

Even now, Cen Luo didn’t think Jian Mu was jealous. Not to mention how short the hug was, but had Jian Mu even seen what happened?

“You, just now…”

As Cen Luo spoke, Jian Mu kept her eyes on her, as if waiting for her to finish.

However, Cen Luo changed the subject. “You came back so early.”

“Yeah, I just went over for a bit,” Jian Mu said as she took a sip of hot water.

At this moment, Jian Mu was no different from her usual self. The hug just now felt like a hallucination to Cen Luo.

But Cen Luo thought about it and felt that a hug wasn’t a big deal.

Aren’t they in a relationship?

What’s wrong with a couple hugging? Why make a big deal out of it?

“Jian Mu.”

Jian Mu looked at Cen Luo when she heard her name.

“You should hug me more often in the future. I actually feel like it’s a strange thing for us to hug now.”

Cen Luo leaned back on the sofa, tilted her head, and looked at Jian Mu.

Jian Mu was stunned by her words. Two seconds later, she seemed to realize what Cen Luo meant.

Actually, Jian Mu also felt that something was wrong. But at the time, she heard Cen Luo trying to change the subject and thought Cen Luo didn’t want others to know about their relationship.

So Jian Mu just hummed along.

Actually, that’s not right.

“My fault.”

Jian Mu always admitted when she was wrong.

She then thought that she should probably find a way to make it up to her, so she asked Cen Luo, “Do you want to treat your colleagues to dinner again?”

When Cen Luo heard Jian Mu’s words, she felt that was enough.

Jian Mu’s thought process was indeed different from others. At first, when she was chasing after her, Cen Luo was hurt by her words for a while.

But later, she got used to it and understood Jian Mu’s actions. She also had more trust in Jian Mu.

“But Jian Mu,” Cen Luo bit her lip, deciding to say what was on her mind. “Can you not meet with Ding Yue in the future?”

After they got together, Jian Mu was a little colder, but most of the time, she would listen to Cen Luo.

Jian Mu was a little confused by Cen Luo’s words, but then she nodded.

Jian Mu didn’t intend to use Ding Yue to make Cen Luo break up with her. Running into Cen Luo at dinner was just a coincidence.

After what happened with Zuo Mo last time, Jian Mu thought for a long time about what she was doing.

Did she want Cen Luo to leave?

It didn’t seem so.

But to love Cen Luo…

Love?

When this thought appeared in Jian Mu’s mind, she was startled.

Cen Luo trusted Jian Mu’s words and also the promises she made to her.

If Jian Mu ever went back on her word, she would probably be very sad.

Cen Luo didn’t know what Jian Mu was thinking, but from her expression, it was not difficult to tell that she was thinking about something that had shocked even herself.

Cen Luo hugged her again, patting her on the back as if she were comforting and encouraging her.

“Jian Mu, you can love me. You can always trust me. I won’t lie to you, and I won’t leave you.”

“Even if it’s like this now, don’t be afraid. I won’t hurt you.”

Cen Luo’s voice was like a magic spell. Jian Mu had heard Cen Luo say these words many times over the years.

But this time, it made her feel something different in her heart.

It was more intense than any other time.