After The Cannon Fodder Died, She Became The Female Lead’s White Moonlight (GL) - Chapter 23.2

Che Gulai couldn’t be bothered with her and drank her water self-contentedly.

Seeing that the person was ignoring her, Shen Sijin got off the bed and staggered to her back, embracing her from behind. She was slightly taller than Che Gulai, so she had to lower her head slightly, resting her head on Che Gulai’s back.

Che Gulai: “Let go.”

“Why?” Shen Sijin’s voice was sluggish, still drunk. “Aren’t we dating? Isn’t hugging normal?”

Che Gulai was momentarily speechless. “I don’t want you to hug me.”

“Then who do you want to hug?” Shen Sijin lifted her head, looking at her profile, asking innocently.

“Anyone but you,” Che Gulai said coldly.

“Liar.” Shen Sijin didn’t believe her. “You’re my girlfriend. I like you, and you like me. We can hug each other.”

I don’t like you. I hate you.

Che Gulai said in her mind.

“Ice Block Miss,” Shen Sijin suddenly uttered a nickname.

“Why are you calling me that?” Che Gulai tried to struggle free but hadn’t expected the drunk Shen Sijin to be quite strong.

“I’m calling you,” Shen Sijin smiled softly. She was lively and bold when drunk, teasing her playfully.

“You’re always so cold. Aren’t you Ice Block Miss?”

Che Gulai: “…Psycho.”

Shen Sijin tightened her embrace, scolding her unhappily. “I told you not to call me a psycho.”

Che Gulai was exasperated. “What is wrong with you?”

“Everyone calls me a psycho, but I’m not. I don’t like people calling me that,” Shen Sijin buried her head in Che Gulai’s neck again, whispering, “Anyone else can call me that, but not you. Gulai, I like you. You can’t say that to me.”

“It makes me very sad.”

Che Gulai gave up trying to break free. She caught her words and asked, “Who is ‘everyone’?”

Shen Sijin thought for a moment. “My mother, and my classmates, and my grandfather. He even locked me in a mental hospital.”

“Your grandfather?” Che Gulai frowned. “Isn’t your father an orphan?”

She had investigated Shen Sijin’s family background. Her parents had died when she was very young, and her father was an orphan with no family members.

Where did the grandfather come from?

But Shen Sijin suddenly became scared, trembling slightly.

“Grandfather hated me. He thought I was abnormal. He locked me in a mental hospital and wouldn’t let me see people.” Her lips were pale, her voice trembling. “Gulai, that place is terrifying. I don’t want to go back there. You can’t throw me in there.”

Che Gulai was utterly confused. What mental illness? What ‘can’t throw her in there’? What was all this? She had thoroughly investigated Shen Sijin’s past and never heard anything about her being sent to a mental hospital.

“Why aren’t you talking, Gulai?” Shen Sijin panicked, tears welling up in her eyes.

“What do you want me to say?” Che Gulai felt her neck getting wet. She suppressed her inner disgust and asked irritably.

“Tell me you won’t throw me into a mental hospital.”

“Got it. I won’t do that.” Che Gulai didn’t care. She just wanted to quickly placate her.

Shen Sijin was satisfied. “If you really do that someday, I’ll hate you forever.”

Che Gulai assumed she was just being drunk and patted her hand, trying to keep her voice gentle.

“Alright, let go of me.”

“Call my name.”

“Shen Sijin.”

“Wrong.”

Che Gulai was starting to regret bringing her to drink. She was incredibly annoying.

She took a deep breath and said with a strange expression, “Xiao Jin?”

Shen Sijin was satisfied. She said shyly, “Call me again.”

Che Gulai’s face was wooden. “Xiao Jin.”

Shen Sijin finally let go of her. Che Gulai grabbed her collar, annoyed to death by her, and roughly threw her onto the bed.

She tried to leave, but Shen Sijin immediately sat up and hugged her waist.

Che Gulai felt like hitting her.

“Gulai, thank you for being here with me,” Shen Sijin suddenly said.

“I’m always so lonely. Loneliness is a kind of pain, inevitable, like hunger. But because of you, my pain is eased. You are important. You are my family. I’m so glad I came to this world.”

Che Gulai stood frozen, surprisingly not pushing her away.

She had been abandoned by her family since childhood and subsequently abandoned by foster parents three times. She knew then that she could not become an indispensable person to others. She couldn’t become someone important to anyone.

Likewise, she couldn’t allow anyone to occupy a place in her heart, nor could she let anyone gain any significance there.

Shen Sijin’s true feelings were nothing but a joke to her. She couldn’t feel the sincerity in them.

Che Gulai and Shen Sijin were like standing on opposite banks of a misty lake. Che Gulai was like a near-blind person, unable to discern Shen Sijin’s gestures of distress, only seeing her frantic dancing.

She would never understand Shen Sijin, neither now nor in the future.

Che Gulai was unmoved by her words. She pushed her hands away, looked at her hazy, drunk state, and lowered herself, speaking in the voice of a demon.

“Shen Sijin, don’t like me too much. You will hate me, in the future.”

Shen Sijin was too drunk and confused to hear what Che Gulai was saying. She just gripped Che Gulai’s hand, slightly opened her eyes, curving them into two small crescents.

“Gulai, did I… embarrass you today?”

Che Gulai’s pupils contracted. She thought she had misheard.

What was this fool saying? She had deliberately made her drink, intending to see her suffer and make a fool of herself.

Even if Shen Sijin realized her intentions later and blamed her, Che Gulai wouldn’t have cared. But she had never expected Shen Sijin to say something like this.

How utterly stupid.

“Say something,” Shen Sijin pressed her face against Che Gulai’s palm, speaking softly. “Did I do well?”

Che Gulai remained silent. She didn’t speak until Shen Sijin fell asleep.

You suffer, so I can be happy, Shen Sijin.

Shen Sijin was woken up by a throbbing headache. The hangover made her miserable.

She sat up on the bed and looked around, realizing she was in an unfamiliar environment.

She felt a little panicked.

Her phone rang just then. She quickly looked for it. It was a message from Che Gulai.

[I had to leave for work. Rest in the hotel for a while before leaving.]

Shen Sijin put down her phone, trying to recall what happened last night. She remembered drinking, and Che Gulai saying some things to her, but she couldn’t recall what. She completely blacked out after getting drunk.

Shen Sijin knocked her own head, thinking that she really couldn’t handle alcohol.

She wondered if she had done anything embarrassing last night.

She got out of bed and took a shower.

After getting ready, she returned to the dorm.

“You’re back.” Bai Mingyu opened the door for her but smelled alcohol. “Did you drink?”

“Mhm.” Shen Sijin’s head still hurt, and she just wanted to lie down.

“But you can’t drink, can you?” Bai Mingyu followed her. “Didn’t Sister Gulai stop you?”

“She didn’t know I couldn’t drink,” Shen Sijin explained for Che Gulai. “It’s fine. I’ll be alright after resting a bit.”

“How could that happen?” Bai Mingyu asked. “Doesn’t she even know something like that?”

“Isn’t that a little careless?”

“I didn’t tell her,” Shen Sijin smiled. “Of course, she wouldn’t know.”

“Alright, get in bed first.” Bai Mingyu said worriedly. “I’ll go buy you something for the hangover.”

“Thank you.”

Shen Sijin lay on the bed, her stomach feeling terrible, like it was burning inside.

She was sweating cold sweat from the pain.

Bai Mingyu returned after buying things and was shocked to see her state. She dropped the things.

“Xiao Jin, what’s wrong?”

“Stomach ache,” Shen Sijin answered with difficulty, clutching her stomach.

Bai Mingyu stamped her foot in distress. “It must be the alcohol hurting your stomach. I’m taking you to the school doctor.”

Shen Sijin’s stomach had always been sensitive. Drinking too much alcohol suddenly had led to stomach spasms. The female school doctor lectured Shen Sijin, prescribed her medicine, and warned her to be careful in the future.

“How are you feeling?” Bai Mingyu sat by her bed.

“Don’t worry, it’s just a minor issue,” Shen Sijin comforted her.

“Minor?” Bai Mingyu raised an eyebrow. “If you drank any more, you’d be bleeding from the stomach, believe it or not.”

“It’s not that serious.”

“Don’t be dismissive.” Bai Mingyu scolded her. “Your body is weak to begin with. Can’t you be more careful? And Sister Gulai too. Doesn’t she like you? She doesn’t even know you can’t drink. That’s too inconsiderate.”

Shen Sijin: “Hey, why are you blaming her? Isn’t this just because my own body is weak?”

Bai Mingyu poked her head with a finger. “Don’t take all the blame on yourself. Give me your phone. I’m calling Sister Gulai.”

Shen Sijin hesitated. “That’s not good. She’s very busy. It’s not like I have a major illness.”

“I don’t care about that.” Bai Mingyu was relentless. “Give it to me.”

Shen Sijin pursed her lips, unable to refuse, and gave her the phone. Deep down, she also secretly hoped for Che Gulai’s concern.

Bai Mingyu called Che Gulai. The first time, no answer. The second time, also no answer.

“…”

Bai Mingyu slowly looked at Shen Sijin.

Shen Sijin laughed awkwardly. “See? I told you she was busy.”

“I don’t believe it. Your girlfriend is lying sick in bed, and she won’t even acknowledge it.” Bai Mingyu was stubborn and insisted on getting through to Che Gulai. She kept pressing the phone loudly.

Shen Sijin tried to protest. “Mingyu, my phone…”

Bai Mingyu ignored her. After she didn’t know how many calls, Che Gulai finally answered.

Bai Mingyu immediately told her about Shen Sijin’s situation.

Che Gulai was attending a gala. The environment was very noisy, and she couldn’t hear clearly. She answered Shen Sijin’s call but found it sounded like Bai Yu’s sister’s voice.

Bai Mingyu rattled on, and Che Gulai vaguely heard phrases like “Shen Sijin,” “sickbed,” and “stomach ache.” But the environment was too loud, and someone was calling her. Che Gulai didn’t have the time to care. She just casually said, “I’m busy right now. Tell her to be careful,” and hung up.

Bai Mingyu stared at the disconnected phone, not knowing what to say.

Shen Sijin had also heard their brief conversation. It was a lie to say she wasn’t disappointed, but her self-comfort mechanism was strong. After a brief self-soothing, she was fine.

“I told you she was very busy,” Shen Sijin said, looking at Bai Mingyu’s cold face awkwardly.

“Ha.” Bai Mingyu was quite angry. “Isn’t that attitude too perfunctory?”

Shen Sijin clutched her stomach, unsure how to appease Bai Mingyu’s anger.

“You’ve only been dating for a few days, and she’s already like this,” Bai Mingyu felt sorry for Shen Sijin and complained on her behalf.

“Even though we’re dating, everyone has their own life,” Shen Sijin was surprisingly understanding. “I can’t expect her to focus all her attention on me. She has her own life, too.”

Bai Mingyu sneered. “You are truly understanding.”

“Mingyu.” Shen Sijin pulled her sleeve, her voice soft. “Don’t be angry.”

“Angry my ass.” Bai Mingyu looked at Shen Sijin’s sweet, frail face, and her anger subsided.

“You’re going to get hurt in the future, you fool.”

Shen Sijin just smiled.

“Stop smiling.”

Shen Sijin’s stomach was uncomfortable, and she had no energy for class. Fortunately, the next day was the weekend. She returned home. Her grandmother had been sent to a nursing home. Her health was too poor, and it was safer for her to stay there.

To prevent her grandmother from feeling lonely, she went to the nursing home to visit.

“Grandmother, I’ve come to see you.” Shen Sijin placed fruit on the table.

“You silly child. It’s enough that you came. Why buy fruit?” Grandmother pretended to scold her.

“To supplement your health,” Shen Sijin said with a smile, peeling a pear for her.

The two chatted peacefully. Shen Sijin took her out for a short walk. Before leaving, Shen Sijin spoke awkwardly. “Grandmother, I have something to tell you.”

“What is it, Xiao Jin?”

“Well… I’m dating someone,” Shen Sijin said nervously.

“Oh, Xiao Jin is all grown up now.” Grandmother laughed happily. “That’s wonderful. Find someone you like to keep you company. What is this person like?”

Shen Sijin thought for a moment. “I like her a lot, and she likes me too.”

“Good, good, good. Bring her to meet Grandmother someday.”

Shen Sijin didn’t dare tell the old woman that her partner was a woman. She planned to bring her over later and let her see for herself.

“Okay, I’ll bring her to see you next time.”

After leaving the nursing home, Shen Sijin was aimless. She passed Che Gulai’s company. She stood at the entrance, debating whether to go inside.

Her phone chimed.

[Ice Block Miss: Come in.]

Che Gulai had seen Shen Sijin from the window. She was standing at the entrance, pacing around, seemingly unsure what to do. Che Gulai thought she had something to say and told her to come in.

She led Shen Sijin to the lounge.

“What were you doing down there?” Che Gulai poured her a glass of boiled water.

Shen Sijin held the cup and smiled shyly. “I just wanted to see you.”

Che Gulai crossed her arms. “…That’s it? Just for that?”

Shen Sijin nodded.

Che Gulai looked bored. She thought Shen Sijin had something important to tell her.

“What’s wrong?” Shen Sijin asked cautiously, seeing her expression was off.

“Nothing.”

The two fell into an awkward silence. Shen Sijin broke it first. “When I was drunk last time, I didn’t do anything out of line, did I?”

Che Gulai: “No.”

“Oh, that’s good.” Shen Sijin breathed a sigh of relief. “I was afraid I might have done something to make you unhappy.”

Che Gulai remembered some of the things she had said that night and suddenly felt irritable. She gave a stiff “Mhm.”

The weather was getting warmer. Che Gulai was only wearing a thin shirt today, her hair tied up, revealing her exquisite and stunning features.

She was so beautiful that Shen Sijin felt she could never look enough.

“Have you missed me recently?” Shen Sijin looked straight at Che Gulai.

Che Gulai lied. “Yes, somewhat.”

Shen Sijin smiled, stood up, and walked toward her.

Che Gulai was backed against the desk, with no room to retreat. Her eyes were calm. She wanted to see what Shen Sijin was going to do.

Shen Sijin stood in front of her, nervously asking for permission. “Can I hug you?”

Che Gulai frowned.

Why is she so fond of physical contact?

“I’m afraid of the heat,” Che Gulai subtly refused.

“Oh.” Shen Sijin pursed her lips in disappointment, thinking that the weather had indeed gotten warmer, and hugging would add to the heat.

She consoled herself again.

To soothe her mood and avoid appearing too cold, Che Gulai changed the subject, showing a moment of care. “How’s your stomach?”

Shen Sijin jumped out of her disappointment. “Ah, much better.”

“Is that so?” Che Gulai didn’t ask why her stomach was acting up, only offering the most minimal concern. “Take care of your health. Don’t eat randomly.”

“You’re worried about me.” Shen Sijin beamed, her disappointment instantly vanishing.

Che Gulai raised an eyebrow. “What do you think?”

Shen Sijin said confidently, “You’re my girlfriend. Of course, you’re worried about me.”

For some reason, hearing the word “girlfriend,” Che Gulai always felt uncomfortable, a bit disgusted.

It was just too strange to be called someone’s girlfriend.

“Sir, you can’t go in without Ms. Che’s permission—”

A commotion started outside the door. Then, the door was slammed open, and Zhou Zi’s disheveled figure barged in.

“Xiao Xu, step outside.”

The door was closed. Zhou Zi stared at Che Gulai with bitter hatred.

“Che Gulai, do you hate me that much?”

Shen Sijin was afraid Zhou Zi would do something to Che Gulai. She instinctively stepped in front of Che Gulai to shield her. Che Gulai glanced at her and said nothing.

“What are you talking about?” Che Gulai looked at Zhou Zi calmly.

“Stop pretending!” Zhou Zi was no longer the imposing figure he once was. He looked completely exhausted. “That project was your doing, wasn’t it?”

Che Gulai smiled slightly.

Zhou Zi took a large step forward, pointing at her and aggressively insulting her. “You vicious woman! You’re trying to drive me to ruin, aren’t you?”

“What happens to you is irrelevant to me,” Che Gulai said slowly. “If you suffer, I’ll be happiest.”

“Zhou Zi, every evil deed you’ve committed will eventually be avenged in a different way.” Che Gulai’s expression was icy. “You deserve this.”

“All for that sick woman who died!” Zhou Zi was completely enraged.

Shen Sijin looked at Che Gulai, confused.

The sick woman who died.

Who was she?

Why did Zhou Zi’s tone suggest this woman was very important to Che Gulai?

“Think whatever you want.”

Zhou Zi’s eyes were bloodshot. “Che Gulai, you lunatic!” He moved to step forward. Shen Sijin blocked him.

“Shen Sijin? Why are you with her?” Zhou Zi’s face was cruel. “Don’t you stupid woman hate her the most?”

Shen Sijin spoke honestly. “If you’re going to cause trouble, I’ll call security.”

Zhou Zi paused, then laughed strangely a few times. “Che Gulai, well played. You even managed to fool Shen Sijin.”

Shen Sijin frowned. She really disliked the way he talked.

“Shen Sijin,” Zhou Zi’s expression was sinister. “For the sake of you liking me before, I’ll give you some friendly advice: stay away from Che Gulai. She’s a deceitful, wicked woman. You’ll end up just like me, ruined by her lies.”

Che Gulai’s expression froze. She said coldly, “Xiao Xu.”

“I’m here.”

“Call security.”

“I’ll leave on my own.” Zhou Zi glared viciously at Che Gulai.

“Che Gulai, you’ve won. I’m unlucky. I should have choked you to death in that villa back then.”

“Too late now.”

Zhou Zi left, and the room returned to silence.

Che Gulai’s presence was overwhelming, icy cold. Shen Sijin tried to find something to say. “Zhou Zi… what happened to him?”

“What, are you concerned about him?” Che Gulai asked sarcastically.

“How could I be?” Shen Sijin quickly explained. “I don’t like him anymore. I only like you.”

Che Gulai realized her overly sharp tone and slightly softened her intensity.

Shen Sijin was just surprised that the male lead would be ruined by the female lead.

It seems the plot has already collapsed. In fact, the plot had already completely broken down the moment she and Che Gulai got together.

“Don’t believe what he said,” Che Gulai told her. “He’s just talking nonsense.”

“Oh.” Shen Sijin replied obediently.

Zhou Zi’s visit had affected Che Gulai’s mood. She didn’t want to see anyone else for the time being.

“It’s late. You can leave now.”

“I still wanted to—” Shen Sijin caught her icy gaze. She slowly blinked, pursed her lips, and whispered, “Then I’ll leave now.”

As she reached the door, Shen Sijin still couldn’t resist her curiosity.

“Can I ask who the sick woman Zhou Zi mentioned was?”

Che Gulai’s face visibly darkened. Her tone wasn’t good either. “It’s none of your business.”

You can’t tell me?

Shen Sijin thought silently.

Was she a very important person?

Shen Sijin really wanted to know. Her heart felt gray and heavy, like a rainfall.

She felt practically chased out by Che Gulai. Absentmindedly, she walked to the entrance and sat on a street chair, staring blankly at the passing crowds.

Che Gulai had been too cold to her. She couldn’t immediately shake it off.

She must have been in a bad mood after seeing the male lead.

That was understandable. It was all the male lead’s fault.

Shen Sijin pressed her heavy heart and took a deep breath.

I came at the wrong time today. Next time, when Gulai is in a better mood, she definitely won’t treat me like this.

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Author’s Note:

It is a happy ending (HE), just not a traditional one.

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