After Transmigrating Into A Cannon Fodder Character, I Only Want To Survive - Chapter 47

Ji Yuning’s words suddenly stopped, but Mu Xuerou didn’t notice anything amiss. After asking the question, Mu Xuerou realized something and said, “I forgot, you wouldn’t know either.”

Mu Xuerou had a few friends who were in early relationships. Asking them the question just now might have yielded an answer, but asking Ji Yuning—the top of the grade wouldn’t be in an early relationship, let alone have kissed someone.

Ji Yuning lowered her eyelashes and said softly, “Mmm.”

Having voiced the matter that had been weighing on her mind, Mu Xuerou breathed out, the feeling of frustration swept away.

She chuckled softly and said to Ji Yuning, “Actually, I Baidu-ed it. The internet says kissing between girls…”

She said half a sentence, then there was no sound from Mu Xuerou’s end. Ji Yuning held her phone, not saying a word.

After a while, Mu Xuerou’s voice came through the receiver, “Yuning, my mom’s calling me for dinner, I’ll hang up first~”

Ji Yuning: “Mmm.”

After the call ended, Ji Yuning put her phone back in its original place.

However, her movements were slightly stiff, a few seconds slower.

Her left hand rested on the edge of the desk again, and her right hand holding the pen remained on the paper, but Ji Yuning’s attention could no longer focus on the questions.

What does kissing feel like?

Ji Yuning wanted to answer Mu Xuerou with “I don’t know,” because she had never experienced it, so naturally, she wouldn’t know. But when the words “I don’t” were about to leave her lips, Fang Bai’s face suddenly appeared in her mind.

Hotel, swimming pool.

She had curled up into a ball, deliberately sinking to the bottom of the pool.

At that time, Ji Yuning’s attention had been entirely on something else, and she had long forgotten how Fang Bai had saved her.

The dazzling water ripples were like illusory starlight. The moon in the water rushing towards her and the air passed into her mouth simultaneously flooded her brain.

The images in her memory overlapped. Ji Yuning clearly remembered how Fang Bai had pulled her out of the water, and even the trembling sensation of suffocation came back to her, but she had forgotten what the touch felt like.

Was artificial respiration considered a kiss?

No.

That was pure salvation.

But…

Could it be considered one?

Ji Yuning didn’t know when she had put down her pen and picked up her phone.

By the time Ji Yuning lowered her eyes to the screen, she found that she had already opened the browser.

[Girls and girls—]

Before Ji Yuning could finish typing, several entries popped up under the search bar:

[What does kissing between girls feel like]

[How do girls and girls date]

[How do girls and girls drive]

Ji Yuning frowned.

The first one was what she wanted to search, but what were the last two?

Especially the last one, which was obviously unrelated to her search.

Although Ji Yuning didn’t understand what “driving” referred to, her first instinct told her it definitely wasn’t the kind of driving with a license.

Whether it was to confirm the suspicion in her heart or because the small flame of curiosity had been ignited, Ji Yuning’s finger hovered over the screen for a few seconds before finally clicking on the third entry.

One second, two seconds.

On the third second, as Ji Yuning swiped down the screen—

“What are you looking at?”

Another voice suddenly appeared in the room.

After dinner, Fang Bai sat at the coffee table, petting the cat while eating after-dinner fruit.

After careful nurturing, Beibei’s fur had become thicker, and its body had rounded out. It felt extremely comfortable to hold, with a great texture.

After finishing a small plate of blueberries, Fang Bai took a tissue to wipe her hands. While throwing away the trash, the corner of the coffee table caught her eye.

Ji Yuning’s medicine was placed there.

Fang Bai thought for a moment, then picked up Beibei from the sofa and said, “Shall we go give Xiao Ning her medicine? So her cold will get better faster~”

Beibei placed its front paws on Fang Bai’s arm and said softly, “Meow~”

Unable to tell if it was agreeing or disagreeing, Fang Bai took it as agreement.

Bending down to pick up the medicine box, Fang Bai carried Beibei step by step up to the attic.

Ji Yuning’s door wasn’t closed. Standing at the door, Fang Bai saw Ji Yuning holding her phone, looking at something intently.

Fang Bai didn’t rashly enter Ji Yuning’s room. She bent her hand holding the medicine and knocked three times on the door with her knuckles.

Although the knock wasn’t very loud, the person inside should have been able to hear it.

However, the person sitting in the chair didn’t move, engrossed in looking at her phone.

Fang Bai raised her eyebrows, placed her hand on Beibei’s head, and walked towards Ji Yuning while asking, “What are you looking at?”

She hadn’t even heard her knock.

The person in the chair stiffened for a second. Realizing the person was Fang Bai, she calmly put away her phone, then looked up at Fang Bai and said, “Searching for questions.”

Her dark eyes were full of calmness, very serene.

But in a place Fang Bai couldn’t see, Ji Yuning gripped her phone tightly, trying to slow her suddenly rapid heartbeat by lowering her breathing as much as possible.

Fang Bai hadn’t seen the content on Ji Yuning’s screen. She glanced at the workbook on the desk, had no doubt about Ji Yuning’s words, and placed the medicine in her hand on the desk. “Take your medicine first.”

Ji Yuning said softly, “Thank you.”

Fang Bai said “You’re welcome” and turned to leave.

Beibei in her arms struggled twice, jumped to the ground, circled its tail twice in the room, and then jumped onto Ji Yuning’s bed.

Fang Bai stopped her. “Beibei, get down.”

Ji Yuning took her medicine and looked at the cat curled up on the bed. “Let it stay.”

“Aren’t you afraid it will do something bad on your bed?” Fang Bai chuckled softly and walked to the bedside to pick up Beibei.

Ji Yuning: “It uses the litter box.”

Fang Bai was about to tell Ji Yuning that even if it used the litter box, she shouldn’t spoil it, but she turned her head to meet Ji Yuning’s dark eyes.

Fang Bai’s heart skipped a beat. She felt that Ji Yuning was acting strangely today, the emotions hidden in her eyes were more intense than usual.

The only constant was that no matter how they looked at each other, her gaze couldn’t reach the depths of Ji Yuning’s eyes, unable to discern the other’s thoughts.

Fang Bai shifted her gaze to Ji Yuning’s dry lips.

It was probably due to the cold.

The words that had reached Fang Bai’s lips abruptly changed to: “Do you have lip balm?”

Fang Bai’s gaze was too direct, and so were her words, making the reason immediately clear.

Ji Yuning pursed her lips, ignoring their dryness. “No.”

Beibei moved restlessly in her arms. Fang Bai pressed down on its small head and said to Ji Yuning, “Come with me for a moment.”

Ji Yuning only responded after Fang Bai had walked three steps away. She slowly got up from the chair, made sure her actions wouldn’t be seen, unlocked her phone, and calmly exited the browser.

Then Ji Yuning put her phone on the desk and followed Fang Bai downstairs to the second floor with a silent expression.

Once on the second floor, Fang Bai put Beibei on the ground, letting it run around.

She then said to the person behind her, “I have lip balm in my room. Come in with me, I’ll get it for you.”

Ji Yuning’s hands hung at her sides. Before she could answer, Fang Bai had already entered her bedroom.

This was the third time Ji Yuning had entered Fang Bai’s bedroom.

Compared to the previous two times, besides the change in Ji Yuning’s mindset, the feeling of the room was also different.

If before it felt like a cold, impersonal hotel room, now it had more warmth. The changes weren’t significant, just a few more decorations and two or three plush toys added to the bed.

And, the group photo placed on the bedside table.

Fang Bai found the lip balm from a drawer. Straightening up, she saw Ji Yuning standing not far from the door, her eyes looking at a certain spot in the room.

Fang Bai followed Ji Yuning’s gaze and also saw the photo.

The photo was a group photo of Fang Bai and Ji Yuning.

Mu Xuerou had taken it for them in front of a scenic spot in Qing City.

In the photo, Ji Yuning’s eyebrows were slightly furrowed, her gaze coolly looking at the camera, her hands straight against her legs, her body as stiff as a scenic spot statue. Compared to Ji Yuning, Fang Bai looked relaxed, one hand in her coat pocket, the other making a peace sign by her face.

Fang Bai withdrew her gaze, a smile playing on her lips. “What do you think? I had Uncle Li develop it yesterday.”

Besides this one, a few photos with Mu Xuerou and He Ziyan, as well as group photos, had also been developed, but only this one was placed on the bedside table.

Fang Bai seized the opportunity and said softly, “The ones with Xiao Mu and Ziyan were also developed, but they’re all in the photo album. Auntie picked out one I thought looked nice to put out. What do you think?”

Ji Yuning turned her head. “It looks good.”

Fang Bai was surprised. These words didn’t sound like they came from Ji Yuning, but they hit the mark.

Fang Bai smiled and handed the item in her hand to Ji Yuning. “It’s new, unused.”

Ji Yuning lowered her eyes. It was a small square plastic box, different from the cylindrical ones she usually saw.

Ji Yuning took it and slowly opened the lid.

Looking at the full, yellowish balm in the box, she knew she needed to use her finger.

Ji Yuning’s eyebrows involuntarily furrowed. She prepared to go back and find a cotton swab.

Seeing Ji Yuning didn’t move, Fang Bai subconsciously asked, “Do you want me to help you?”

After asking, Fang Bai answered herself: no need.

Who knew Ji Yuning would hesitate for a moment, then softly say, “Please.”

Fang Bai was stunned for a few seconds before regaining her senses. “I’ll go wash my hands.”

She had just held the cat.

Half a minute later, Fang Bai wiped the water stains from her hands with a tissue. She opened the lid and swirled her fingertip on the balm.

Ji Yuning stood in place, silently watching Fang Bai’s actions.

She didn’t know why she had agreed.

Maybe she thought cotton swabs would be uncomfortable.

Fang Bai raised her finger to her face and softly instructed Ji Yuning to open her mouth.

When Ji Yuning’s tightly pursed lips slightly parted, Fang Bai’s finger coated in balm touched Ji Yuning’s lips.

The balm was cool. The warmth of Fang Bai’s fingertip spread through the balm, and her finger moved left and right on Ji Yuning’s lips, causing a tingling sensation.

After it was applied, her lips felt moisturized. Although it was only a thin layer, the uncharacteristic smoothness felt heavy.

The finger moved away from her lips.

Ji Yuning couldn’t help but lower her lips, wanting to thin out the heavy layer.

But the finger that had moved away unexpectedly returned. Fang Bai’s fingertip pressed against Ji Yuning’s lips, and Ji Yuning’s lips pursed around Fang Bai’s fingertip.

Ji Yuning froze, a hint of subtle panic flashing in her eyes.

Fang Bai, however, didn’t think much of it. She withdrew her held finger and tapped Ji Yuning’s lips, saying softly, “This part isn’t spread evenly.”

Ji Yuning looked away. “…Mmm.”

Closing the lid, Fang Bai put the lip balm in Ji Yuning’s hand. “This is for you. Apply it when your lips are dry, otherwise they’ll crack and bleed, which is very painful.”

Ji Yuning didn’t reply. She saw Fang Bai pick up the makeup mirror on the table and rub her finger against her lips while looking in the mirror.

And just a second ago, that finger had been withdrawn from her lips.

However, the balm on her finger was freshly applied by Fang Bai.

But there would still be residual balm, right?

Ji Yuning’s heart skipped a beat.

After applying the lip balm, Fang Bai turned her head and saw Ji Yuning still standing beside her. She asked, “Is there anything else?”

“You…” Ji Yuning clenched her hand.

“Hmm?” Fang Bai looked puzzled.

Seeing this, Ji Yuning relaxed her hand, said “Nothing” and left the room without looking back.

Fang Bai felt a sense of bewilderment.

“…”

Back in her room, Ji Yuning sat on the bed for a long while.

The cool indifference in her eyes gradually changed.

She didn’t know how long had passed, but Ji Yuning picked up her phone and opened the browser she had hastily closed.

This time, she didn’t click on anything else but directly typed out the question she wanted to know: [What does kissing between girls feel like]

The first webpage gave Ji Yuning the answer:

[Answer: Very soft, very sweet!]

Very soft.

Very sweet.

Ji Yuning’s gaze rested on the strawberry-flavored lip balm on the table.

…Would it be as sweet as strawberry?

Author’s Note:

Xiao Ji: Auntie’s finger tasted like strawberry!