The White Lotus Villainess Is Obsessed With Me - Chapter 53

Wang Sasa tried to drag out the time, hesitating to fall asleep.

This was something completely ordinary in the past, but it made her heart race uncontrollably. She glanced secretly behind her and saw that Tan Yixuan was already lying on the other side, looking at her curiously. Taking a deep breath, she finally lay down with the resolve of a warrior.

As soon as she lay down, she turned her back to Tan Yixuan, facing the window, but kept her ears alert. Tan Yixuan shifted slightly, making rustling noises, and Wang Sasa’s heart went into a frenzy.

Tan Yixuan moved closer, her warm breath reaching Wang Sasa’s ear. Wang Sasa immediately shivered and instinctively moved a step away, not daring to look back at her.

Tan Yixuan paused, furrowing her brow as she looked at her, then thoughtfully reached out and placed her fingers on Wang Sasa’s arm. Wang Sasa, trying to appear nonchalant, jumped in reflex and raised her voice, “What are you doing?”

Tan Yixuan was startled by her reaction, gripping her shoulder as she leaned over to look at her. “What’s wrong? Sasa?” She scrutinized her carefully and noticed the beads of sweat on Wang Sasa’s forehead. More puzzled, she asked, “Are you hot? Do you want to turn on the air conditioning?”

Wang Sasa took a deep breath and carefully observed Tan Yixuan. Seeing her looking at her with no apparent ulterior motives, Wang Sasa felt a rush of shame and turned red.

What’s wrong? Concerned you might have other intentions. How could she even say that? Feeling embarrassed, Wang Sasa suddenly doubted her own charm. Tan Yixuan liked her; she was lying next to her in cool clothes. Normal people would probably have some thoughts, right? Especially since Tan Yixuan had just kissed her fiercely before.

Wang Sasa pondered, thinking perhaps her complete refusal earlier made Tan Yixuan hesitant to act impulsively? Should she act more open and casual? Wait, something didn’t seem right.

Wang Sasa couldn’t help but glance at Tan Yixuan, who asked, “Aren’t you going to sleep?”

Yes, why was she seriously considering the possibility of having s*x with Tan Yixuan?

Wang Sasa was so startled by her own thoughts that she pulled the blanket over her face and buried herself, pretending to sleep. Tan Yixuan sighed quietly, watching the person curled up like a silkworm chrysalis.

Later, Wang Sasa thought she might have some genuine feelings for Tan Yixuan. After all, Tan Yixuan was her first pursuit, even if it was fake. She was her first love, even if that too was false. But too many firsts had made Tan Yixuan occupy a small place in her heart. However, as soon as she thought about going home, all these complex emotions disappeared completely.

She could only act, but she couldn’t let her heart truly engage.

But Tan Yixuan became even more clingy.

Tan Yixuan was copying tonight’s homework for her. The various study committees wrote assignments on the corner of the blackboard after class. The writing was too small, and their seats were far, so they often had to copy the homework from the teacher’s desk after class. Tan Yixuan handled all these little tasks, from copying homework to cleaning the classroom, whenever she had time.

Wang Sasa didn’t need Tan Yixuan to do these things, but whenever she refused, Tan Yixuan would make a pitiable expression.

“I want to be good to you, but you don’t seem to lack anything, so I can only do these things.” She looked at Wang Sasa with a hint of sadness, her fingers gently holding Wang Sasa’s, showing an intimate gesture.

Wang Sasa glanced at her and, seeing her enjoyment, helplessly compromised.

Tan Yixuan was trying hard to be good to her, so Wang Sasa also had to try hard to pretend to like her.

But as Wang Sasa kept pretending, she gradually found it harder to maintain.

True feelings or false, over time, one’s heart shows.

Wang Sasa could maintain the pretense for a while, but after a month, it was becoming increasingly difficult.

Previously, when they were just friends, they were almost inseparable. Now that they were dating and sitting together, they were even more glued to each other.

Studying, resting, and vacationing—every moment was spent together.

Even prisoners in jail get some outdoor time. Wang Sasa felt like she didn’t even get the treatment of a prisoner; she had to constantly maintain a loving appearance, which was mentally exhausting.

While doing homework at night, Wang Sasa’s phone rang. Tan Yixuan was sitting next to her, working on her own homework. Wang Sasa glanced at the number—it was an unfamiliar one, not marked as a spam call. So, she casually answered the call.

A deep male voice came from the receiver, and Wang Sasa was momentarily stunned; it was Zhang Hong. Her gaze subconsciously flicked to Tan Yixuan.

Tan Yixuan paused, gently stroking her fingertips, and looked over with an inscrutable expression.

Wang Sasa felt an invisible pressure, causing her to break into a cold sweat.

She tried to stay calm and said, “Is there something?”

Zhang Hong cheerfully asked, “How was the snack from last time?”

Snack? In fact, Wang Sasa hadn’t paid any attention to the box of snacks since that night. Now, if she had to find it, she wouldn’t be able to recall it immediately. Fortunately, she knew what was in the box and casually responded, “The chocolate tasted pretty good.”

Zhang Hong said, “That’s good if you like it.”

Wang Sasa turned her head and saw Tan Yixuan staring at her intently, her gaze unwavering. Feeling overwhelmed, she swallowed hard and said, “Do you have anything else?”

Zhang Hong responded, “Am I disturbing you?”

“Not really…” Wang Sasa glanced at Tan Yixuan’s gaze and immediately replied firmly, “Yes, you are disturbing me. I’m doing homework. Please, keep it brief if you have something to say.”

Zhang Hong paused and then directly asked, “Can we meet on Sunday?”

The study room was very quiet; there was no fan or air conditioning, and even with the phone not on speaker, the other person’s voice could be heard clearly.

Tan Yixuan was sitting closely next to Wang Sasa. She was gripping Wang Sasa’s arm with one hand and resting the other on the desk, her body angled towards Wang Sasa with a slightly somber expression.

Wang Sasa’s heart sank, fearing Tan Yixuan might have another outburst. She had to refuse Zhang Hong sternly: “No! I have to go to cram school!”

She then hung up the phone decisively.

Wasn’t her refusal clear enough? She didn’t want to look at Tan Yixuan, but saw her expression darken even more, causing her to be slightly stunned.

Tan Yixuan sighed softly, reached out, and gently placed her hands on Wang Sasa’s shoulders. She gazed at Wang Sasa and asked, “Sasa, why didn’t you just tell him you have a girlfriend?”

Wang Sasa was a bit dazed, staring at her.

Tan Yixuan sighed again, self-reproachfully saying, “I’m too greedy, aren’t I? You’re different from me. I just need to persuade Grandma.” As she spoke, she couldn’t help but gently touch Wang Sasa’s cheek.

Wang Sasa had always been very attentive to her skincare, especially her face, which she treated with great care. She had just applied essence and cream, and her face felt slightly moist and sticky. Instinctively, she took Tan Yixuan’s hand and looked directly into her eyes, hesitating, “Tan Yixuan, did you tell Grandma Tan about our relationship?”

Tan Yixuan paused, then held her hand in both of hers and said, “I’ve mentioned it to her…”

When did this happen?

Wang Sasa was so shocked that she didn’t recover for a long time.

“You don’t need to go this far…” Wang Sasa had never imagined that Tan Yixuan would be willing to confess to Grandma Tan on her behalf. The pressures Tan Yixuan faced were different from hers, whether before or after coming into this world.

For her, confessing her orientation to her current parents, though it would bring some difficulties, was within her control. She wasn’t worried that her parents would be heartbroken because of her orientation; societal pressure was a different matter. After all, by the time she finishes high school, she might no longer be in this world.

If she left, and the world continued to turn, then Tan Yixuan would be the one shouldering the pressure alone.

She had never experienced it, but she could imagine how terrifying such prejudice and pressure would be.

“Why are you so foolish?” Wang Sasa bit her lip, feeling a pang of guilt and not daring to meet Tan Yixuan’s gaze.

Tan Yixuan turned her face towards her, resting their foreheads together, her voice soft and melodious: “I’m not foolish; I just don’t want to hide my feelings for you from others.” Her eyes sparkled as she smiled gently, “You’re so wonderful. If I don’t claim ownership, what if someone else takes you away?”

As Tan Yixuan drew closer, Wang Sasa’s heart raced faster and faster, nearly leaping out of her chest. She forced herself to calm down, trying to suppress her boiling blood, and the color drained from her face.

She managed a smile, deliberately looking for faults to control her rapid heartbeat: “What ownership? Are you an object? Isn’t that a bit possessive?”

Tan Yixuan, afraid she had upset her, quickly defended herself: “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean it that way.” Her voice was tender and low, pleading, “Don’t be mad at me, okay? I admit I have selfish reasons. Just like with Zhang Hong earlier, if I don’t act boldly, what if someone else takes you away? I don’t see you as an object…” She became more flustered, her fair face turning red, which made Wang Sasa feel exasperated for her.

Wang Sasa’s lips involuntarily curved upwards: “There you go again.” She murmured quietly, “Apologizing all the time, you’re so timid.”

Tan Yixuan’s moist eyes gazed at her lovingly, her hands gripping Wang Sasa’s fingers tightly. As she intently watched her, she naturally noticed Wang Sasa’s smile, so her restless heart gradually calmed down, and she also smiled, “I’m glad you’re not angry.”

When Wang Sasa went to bed, she suddenly thought there seemed to be a problem with her interactions with Tan Yixuan. Whenever she showed the slightest displeasure, Tan Yixuan would adopt a pitiful, tearful look. She could rarely withstand such expressions and would end up giving in. From another perspective, wasn’t she completely under Tan Yixuan’s control?