To Covet (GL) - Chapter 36

Before I could send the question mark in the input field, the two messages were withdrawn and disappeared.

Seizing the moment before my short-term memory faded, I typed the address and room number into my notepad. The subway downstairs offered a direct route. I was still indecisive about going as I entered the elevator, but once outside, looking at the rapidly darkening sky, I decided to take a taxi.

Yu Zhouwan opened the door for me, or more accurately, pulled it open just a handspan wide.

As I pushed the door open, I immediately scanned the room; there was no one else. I glimpsed the slightly ajar bathroom. The floor tiles had patchy water stains, and fog was still visible on the mirror, proving someone had been there, but it was now empty.

Alert to being in a strange place, I retreated two steps, my hand braced against the door panel, ready to flee at any moment.

On the way, I couldn’t stop my mind from racing. I even had a utility knife ready in my pocket. As my finger knocked on that door, I had envisioned many bizarre scenarios in the few minutes I waited for her to open it, such as witnessing a domination scene with a stranger, or the message Yu Zhouwan sent me actually being a secret plea for help…

Under her gaze, I strode to the bed and sat down, the sound of my short boots on the floor echoing crisply.

“Did you bring the medicine?”

The room was hot. Contrary to me, who was bundled up, Yu Zhouwan was wearing a thin, long shirt that barely covered half her thighs.

I looked up and noticed her hair was wet, but very unevenly so, as if she had just escaped a sudden downpour.

“No.”

A night had passed. The swelling was gone, but the crisscrossing blue and red marks looked even more menacing.

“So, why did you ask me to come here?” I asked her.

I was getting hot enough to sweat. I took off my down jacket and held it, unable to stop guessing the circumstances under which that message was sent. Did Yu Zhouwan mistakenly send it to me while contacting her “Dom”? But she didn’t seem surprised to see me, so that reason, along with other thoughts, was dismissed.

“Have you been to the hospital?” She deliberately avoided my question, touching the dressing on the back of my hand.

“Yes. I have to go again tomorrow.”

I habitually turned my face to look at the person when answering. The response I met was neither a concerned question nor a new topic, but a kiss pressed against my lips.

Without thinking, I reached out to push her away.

Yu Zhouwan wrapped her arms around my neck and sat down on my lap, our heartbeats resonating in sync with our heaving breaths due to our tightly pressed chests.

She realized my rejection. The arms around my neck tightened even more. My hand inadvertently pressed into the injured area on her shoulder. A faint whimper escaped her mouth, turning into an irregular, biting kiss amidst gasps and strands of saliva. She grabbed my hand and led it under the rolled-up hem of her shirt.

Her skin still felt smooth and slick. Moving upward, I found a soft area that was easily accessible. I felt for and unhooked the clasp on her back.

The hand clutching my arm instantly tightened. I knew I had touched a bruised area. I wanted to pull back, but Yu Zhouwan grabbed my fingers, pressed them down harder, and deliberately circled the sore spot to stimulate the senses until her hand trembled uncontrollably. The choking sobs, which had been muffled by the continuous testing of her sensory limits, turned into clear crying. The redness in her eyes, hidden in tears, should have inspired tenderness like a rabbit’s, but she was mercilessly self-tormenting.

My withdrawn hand still held her body heat. I gathered my strength and pushed her off, but Yu Zhouwan immediately wrapped her arms around my waist and pulled me down onto the bed.

I pinned her body, locking her hands above her head, reversing the passive situation.

“Sister, help me take this off, okay?” I grabbed her hand.

The button of her jeans popped open with a click, and the restraint on her waist disappeared.

The belt was only half an inch wide, but it was cinched around her slender neck, the metal buckle leaving a shadowed impression on her skin.

“Don’t touch. Hands off.”

To obey the command not to pull the belt, she released the two fingers hooked around it, yet she didn’t dare fully remove her hands from her neck.

Although the belt wasn’t tight, Yu Zhouwan couldn’t help but gasp from the panic of being controlled by someone else. Her warm breath swept across my palm.

My finger explored her mouth, slowly stroking the roof of her palate, then testing her tongue.

Her teeth pressed against my knuckle. Yu Zhouwan struggled to keep herself from biting down. Her lips gradually moistened with overflowing saliva, which trailed from the corners of her mouth down to her chin.

“Ugh…” She couldn’t speak, desperately clutching my sleeve. Suddenly, she broke free of my hand, sat up, and leaned on my waist, panting urgently and coughing non-stop.

I expressed my displeasure at the casual defiance of my instruction with silence.

“Keyi,” Yu Zhouwan’s tone was clingy, like a soft murmur. “Am I repulsive?”

She ceded the right to judgment and punishment to me. I looked away. The light cast the intertwined shadows of two people on the wall, just as we had been while kissing.

“I’m sorry. Punish me.” Though she didn’t know what treatment awaited her, she still closed her eyes, ready to receive it.

I loosened the lock on her neck. Yu Zhouwan’s eyes opened a crack. Seeing that I was turning to leave, she lunged at me without hesitation, almost falling to the floor.

“Yu Keyi, do you secretly think I look pathetic and slutty like this?” She turned her head, avoiding the direct light. “Tell me the truth.”

I slowly savored the weight of that keyword.

If a final judgment had to be made, I, who had been infatuated with her body from the start, was also a despicable person. Regardless of her path before, my series of actions had certainly pushed her further into the abyss of self-abandonment.

I kissed her neck. Beneath the softness where my teeth pressed was a vulnerable pulse. If I really bit down… I had a phantom hearing of her scream. Ultimately, I couldn’t bring myself to bite, and the suction of my lips left small red marks on her skin.

“I don’t find it repulsive. You smell so good.” I buried my face in her hair.

She dragged the sheet up, moving her body higher, and hissed softly, wrinkling her nose.

My fingers passed over the marks on Yu Zhouwan’s body. Unfortunately, they weren’t brushstrokes. No matter how hard I rubbed, I couldn’t wipe them away; I would only cause her needless pain.

“What about her?” I asked. “The person you had the appointment with.”

Yu Zhouwan shook her head.

“She hurt you like this and then left?”

She still remained silent.

I had originally wanted to mock Yu Zhouwan—she should have been prepared to encounter a rough and irresponsible Dom when she chose online domination.

Then the thought occurred to me that she might have been subjected to some unspeakable humiliation and sought me out for comfort. A sudden possessiveness rose in me, unwilling to share her with anyone else, especially since the other person had done nothing but unilaterally vent violence.

“She was truly terrible,” she said with a bitter smile, her words carrying a disappointment I couldn’t understand. “But I… I really don’t know what to do.”

I stripped off my clothes and hugged her again. I realized that the skin I thought was warm was actually ice-cold. It made me want to hold her even tighter, until she gasped for air and begged me to stop.

“Keyi, tell me,” Yu Zhouwan clutched my arm, burying her face in my shoulder. “What should I do?”

“Being tied up really hurts. It’s so tight it feels like I’m going to suffocate and die. But it’s the only way I can forget… forget how… ugh…”

I sucked her earlobe, licking the hickeys along her jawline. My hand kneaded her waist. She leaned against me, her breathing growing more rapid, her eyes gradually shadowed by rising desire.

“Forget how shameful my kink is.”

“Tell me, why am I like this? I’m afraid of pain, but I only feel pleasure when the pain makes my vision swim.”

I pulled back the kiss that was about to reach her lips and stared directly at her.

“Are you thinking that one day I’ll be strangled by a rope and people will point fingers, right?”

“Yu Keyi, was what you said before true?” Yu Zhouwan’s tone suddenly became urgent. “You said I was beautiful, and you said you wanted me?”

A layer of sweat was just enough to dampen my clothes, outlining the curves of my body.

At my command, she took off her bra and panties. The already erect nipples under her white, loose shirt cast a small shadow on the fabric.

She pressed down on me just as I was about to get up and sat on my arm, clamping her legs tightly.

I gently moved my arm. The rolling hem of my shirt, pressed by her body weight, continuously stimulated her already messy lower body. She couldn’t help but moan. The wet heat dissolved along my arm, flowing down between my legs and onto the sheet. Her body instantly went limp. She wrapped her arms around my neck, her body heaving violently.

“Keyi, little sister, do you still like this disgusting, slutty side of your sister?”

In my perception, her actions were always circuitous. She never made such a direct statement.

“Keyi, what do you want to do to me?” Yu Zhouwan buried herself under the blanket. “Hurt me as much as you hate me. Tie me up with as much force as you have, hmm? If you want to hit me, you can hit me anywhere. I like being… being bullied by you.”

“I need to wash my hands.” I silently sighed, wiping the moisture from my arm. I tucked her messy hair behind her ear and got up to go to the bathroom.

“Keyi, don’t,” she struggled to climb out of bed, trying to grab me just as I was about to open the door. “Wait a minute. Don’t go in there.”

It was as if there was something shameful that needed to be hidden.