She Won’t Be The Alpha In A Redemption Novel - Chapter 8

Shen Banyan pressed her lips together. Looking at the person in her arms, she gently pressed her own lips down.

Their lips only touched lightly for a moment, so briefly they did not even take on each other’s warmth.

Su Xiqiao’s payment was to have Shen Banyan kiss her once.

Purely because she wanted to know whether, in everyday life, Shen Banyan’s kisses would help clear away those intrusive thoughts about returning to Bo Yi’an’s side.

It had to be said, Shen Banyan’s kiss was indeed useful.

In that case, if Shen Banyan willingly kissed her for a little longer, the effect should be even better.

Only, judging from the way she looked now, that was definitely impossible.

Today, Su Xiqiao had come here to help Shen Banyan save her young aunt for another reason as well.

She wanted a possibility.

She wanted to use the result of successfully making the plot deviate through someone else to glimpse the future where she herself successfully broke free from control.

“You really don’t know how to kiss at all.” There was a little regret in Su Xiqiao’s words. After leaving Shen Banyan’s lips, she stood up directly.

“I’m… not in the mood.”

Shen Banyan looked at Su Xiqiao. She did not know how she should explain her current mood.

“Tell me about your aunt.”

Su Xiqiao sat beside Shen Banyan, her eyes looking straight at her. Those eyes, usually filled with charm, were now full of seriousness.

“My aunt?”

Shen Banyan had not expected Su Xiqiao’s request to be this, so she asked back.

“Who else?”

“You and I aren’t the kind of people described in the plot. Then your aunt shouldn’t be the person described in the plot either, right?”

“Put another way, I don’t like the limitations of the plot. For my own sake, I need to know more.”

Su Xiqiao tilted her head. Her gaze was like that of a little cat by the roadside, looking at Shen Banyan adorably.

Shen Banyan avoided Su Xiqiao’s eyes. She was not good at facing anything cute.

She was allergic to all people and things related to love.

And yet, she still spoke.

Perhaps it was because World Consciousness 001 had told her that if Su Xiqiao did everything, the probability of changing things would be higher than if Shen Banyan did it herself.

Or perhaps it was because she had already hidden too many things in her heart.

Those things had long piled up so much that they were almost crushing the breath out of her.

When Shen Banyan was young, Shen Qingyu was the one who truly fulfilled the role of a mother.

In truth, Shen Qingyu was not actually Shen Banyan’s biological aunt.

She and Shen Banyan’s mother were not sisters, but cousins.

Only, Shen Qingyu had grown up together with Shen Banyan’s mother since childhood, so she held the tiny Shen Banyan every day and wept.

It was her aunt who took her to school. It was her aunt who stayed with her when she was sick. One could say that everything in the earliest part of Shen Banyan’s life had been taught to her by her aunt.

“What should our Banyan do?”

Back then, Shen Qingyu would always stroke Shen Banyan’s head, her eyes full of heartache.

And so, Shen Banyan slowly grew up amid her grandmother’s strictness and her aunt’s love.

Until her aunt fell in love with an Omega.

An Omega who was younger than her aunt. An Omega who could never give her aunt a future.

At that time, Shen Banyan happened to be in adolescence. She did not understand why the aunt who had always treated her so well would make the same mistake as her mothers.

A mistake that could not be made.

After her mothers left her because of love, her closest aunt was actually going to leave her because of love too.

Love really was the most terrifying thing in the world!

Anger filled Shen Banyan’s head at the very first moment. When her aunt carefully asked whether she could give them her blessing, Shen Banyan refused.

She watched as her aunt’s eyes dimmed almost the very first second after being rejected.

“I regretted it in the first second.”

When Shen Banyan said this, there was not much emotion in her words.

Not because it was a lie.

But because countless days and nights of regret had long since exhausted all her emotions.

After refusing, all Shen Banyan wanted was to beg her aunt not to leave her because of love.

But it was already too late. Her aunt left without looking back. Her pleas, her regret, the words she had not managed to say—her aunt no longer wanted to hear any of it.

Su Xiqiao fell silent for a while when she heard this.

She did not like the word “love.” She was even repulsed by it.

Because in her predetermined fate, the word “love” meant that she had to exchange everything she possessed for it.

Even her own soul.

On what grounds?

It made no sense at all. It was practically a robbery.

But when she heard Shen Banyan speak of this, she could immediately imagine just how hopeless Shen Qingyu must have felt back then.

It was a love affair no one would affirm. No family or friends would understand it.

And so, she had placed her only gaze on Shen Banyan.

This child she had raised with her own hands.

But the expected affirmation never came.

What came was only rejection.

What happened later was exactly as the plot described.

Even without anyone’s blessing, Shen Qingyu still secretly went abroad with her girlfriend.

They wore wedding dresses and found a small church.

No priest was willing to officiate a marriage between two Omegas, so they deceived a nun.

Originally, after Shen Qingyu said “I do,” the two of them could have briefly become each other’s wives.

Unfortunately, even a single second was something heaven refused to give these two ill-fated women.

The Shen family’s enemies found the church they had booked, and the entire church was bathed in blood.

Because she was rescued a little too late and did not receive treatment in time, Shen Qingyu’s lover lost too much blood and became vegetative.

Her aunt’s wedding was forever missing one “I do” that would never arrive.

In order to marry her, Shen Qingyu’s girlfriend had endured immense pressure, directly cut ties with her family, and was expelled from the family register.

Naturally, no one would pay the medical expenses for an abandoned Omega.

A vegetative patient with no value, who could no longer be used for a marriage alliance and whose continued existence only burned money, was not worth their attention.

Shen Qingyu had nowhere to turn. She asked every friend she had, but no one would lend her money. Everyone knew it was a bottomless pit.

Left with no other choice, Shen Qingyu could only follow the family’s wishes and marry her current husband.

In order to keep her lover’s vital signs stable, she chose to spend her entire life as the price.

Even after marrying, Shen Qingyu would not let an Alpha mark her. She chose artificially synthesized Alpha pheromones to ease her heats.

This kind of pheromone could ease her heat, but at the same time, it would gradually strip away her reason and make her more and more irritable.

When Shen Banyan learned of these things, she knew clearly that her aunt was essentially slowly destroying her own life.

She could not stop her.

Later, because Shen Qingyu had married, and because she feared the family would target her lover, she visited her lover less and less.

But today was different.

The script had clearly written it.

Shen Banyan’s aunt, because she came to Shen Banyan to ask for money, would lose forever the chance to see her lover.

If things truly developed according to the script, Shen Banyan would not be able to forgive herself.

To make up for it, no matter what, she had to keep her aunt at that hospital.

That blessing back then—she should have given it.

This was the thing she regretted most in her life: that at that time, she had not openly and honestly blessed her aunt.

That time, she had stood opposite her aunt. It was the thing she should never have done in this life.

Shen Qingyu sat in the car, repeatedly thinking over everything strange about today.

She knew that her conduct in recent years had become more and more irritating to others, but Shen Banyan was different.

That child she had raised with her own hands had never looked at her with the same eyes as everyone else.

But how could Banyan let someone else say those kinds of things?

Shen Qingyu only felt that all the clues in her mind were a tangled mess.

Perhaps because of the artificial pheromones, her brain function now could not compare to before either. She instinctively turned her thoughts to her lover.

Just thinking of going to see her lover made her heartbeat lose its original rhythm.

All these years, she had visited that person less and less.

She was afraid. Afraid of seeing that person lying there with no sign of life.

So all she could do was allow pain to devour her soul.

The agony of seeing her once was a hundred times more painful than the pain in Shen Qingyu’s gland.

After getting into the car, Shen Qingyu heard a ding.

On her phone was a notification that two million had been deposited into her account.

She was a member of the Shen family. When it came to money, she should not have lacked any at all.

Yes.

She should not have.

Looking at the message on her phone, she did not need to guess much to know who had sent it.

“Sister, I’m sorry…”

“I wasn’t a good aunt.”

The moment her tears smashed against the phone screen, Shen Qingyu seemed, vaguely, to return to how she had been at the very beginning.

[But, Shen Banyan, do you really think letting your aunt see the other person one last time is a good thing?]

World Consciousness 001 did not understand human feelings. Now that she was trapped in Shen Banyan’s head, she could not help but ask.

Seeing that Shen Banyan did not answer, she felt bored and decided to start being unreasonable.

[Don’t refuse to answer me. How about this? If you answer me, I’ll help you investigate who exactly surrounded that church back then.]

Originally, Shen Banyan had not wanted to answer World Consciousness 001. After all, talking to this thing was a complete waste of her strength.

But when she heard this sentence, she changed her mind.

[It isn’t a good thing.]

[It’s the blessing I’m making up to my aunt.]

[Happiness and joy are not two things that must always come together. Sometimes, what accompanies happiness is pain.]

[As long as my aunt is happy, that’s enough. Even if she chooses pain, I will still bless her.]

Shen Banyan had once thought that she should protect her aunt.

She thought she should be like the rest of the family and choose the easiest path for her aunt.

She had thought that was the best choice.

Until reality told her what an enormous mistake she had made.

[So that’s what you think…]

It was World Consciousness 001’s first time encountering this kind of thought. After pondering for a while, she still did not understand Shen Banyan’s words.

[Who surrounded that church?]

Shen Banyan began to demand her payment.

[You’ve met them before.]

World Consciousness 001’s tone was light and cheerful, as if she were humming a song.

[The Bo family was involved, but the person leading it was not in the direction the Shen family is currently investigating.]

[It was the Zhao family your aunt married into. Oh, right, that’s the Zhao family that has been lying on top of the Shen family and sucking its blood all these years. The real mastermind behind the scenes is your uncle-in-law.]