After Transmigrating as a Beta, I Got Messed Up with an Alpha (BL) - Chapter 34

If every contact with him leads to a loss of control, then the simple solution is to stop touching!

Pei Yule’s logic was straightforward; after hearing Huo Juan’s confession, this was his only thought. As long as they didn’t touch, Huo Juan wouldn’t lose control. That way, Huo Juan wouldn’t have to take that “U-type” drug, and he himself would regain his freedom… although he wouldn’t be able to help alleviate the pheromone disorder anymore, in terms of trade-offs, it was better than causing the man’s condition to worsen.

Pei Yule opened his mouth, about to voice his opinion, when he heard Huo Juan say: “I refuse.”

Huh? Refuse what?

Pei Yule didn’t catch the drift immediately, but before he could process it, Huo Juan’s upper body moved. He leaned forward, pressing his hands against the sofa’s backrest on either side of Pei Yule’s shoulders, pinning him against the cushions and looking down at him from a dominant position.

…Wait, wait, wait? This posture…

Those large hands—the ones he had just praised as being fit for a hand model—held him in place. Pei Yule looked up in confusion, meeting Huo Juan’s lowered, deep dark eyes.

“You want me to stop the contact therapy with you?”

So he did understand. Pei Yule nodded quickly.

Unexpectedly, Huo Juan stared at him and repeated: “I refuse.”

Huo Juan knew exactly what the boy was thinking. This person’s mind was direct, without any twisted motives: If touching me makes you lose control, then just don’t touch me. But if that were the case, all of Huo Juan’s endurance would become meaningless.

“If you are afraid I’ll lose control and do something to you, don’t worry.” He spoke softly. “I will use medication. Everything you worry about, I will not do.”

But to ask him to never touch this person again? Sorry, he couldn’t do it.

Pei Yule didn’t understand why Huo Juan was so insistent. Wouldn’t it be easier just to stop the therapy? Wasn’t he losing more than he gained by persisting like this?

He thought it, and so he said it: “I’ve checked; the side effects of U-type drugs are severe. I’m sure you understand the dangers better than I do. I think for the sake of your health and your future, you should stop this dangerous behavior.”

Huo Juan shook his head.

“Why?” Pei Yule truly didn’t understand. “Insisting on this even if it means taking drugs with side effects… there’s no need, right? Besides, even if I treat you, it only stops the pain briefly before it gets worse. It’s so much trouble. Why are you making things hard for yourself?”

A spark of inspiration hit Pei Yule. Could it be he’s…?

“The reason…” Huo Juan was silent for two seconds. He released his grip on the sofa and moved his hand to Pei Yule’s chin, his thumb tracing it almost imperceptibly. He whispered: “Think for yourself.”

“…”

The completely unexpected answer made Pei Yule think he had misheard. He wanted to ask more, but he didn’t get the chance; Huo Juan let go and pulled him up from the sofa.

“The bell rang a long time ago. You should go to class.”

In his haste to get answers, he had completely forgotten! He’d missed more than half the period. Pei Yule was stunned for a moment as Huo Juan spun him around and pushed him toward the door. He took a few steps, but it didn’t feel right. He turned back and asked, “Huo Juan, what did you mean just now? And your problem isn’t solved at all. I still think you shouldn’t take the medicine—”

Huo Juan murmured: “If I don’t take the medicine, the person who will end up with a headache later… will be you.”

After all, if he lost control, he really didn’t know what he would do to him.

Pei Yule didn’t get it at all. “Why? You said you only lose control when we touch, so we just won’t touch!” That way, nothing would hurt him.

“I refuse.”

That was the third time Huo Juan had said “refuse” today. Pei Yule thought he was being completely unreasonable. As Huo Juan pushed him to the door, he felt the issue was still unresolved and didn’t want to just go with the flow. He turned his head again: “You—”

His voice cut off abruptly.

The tall Alpha leaned down and lightly brushed his nose against Pei Yule’s cheek. It was a fleeting touch, light as a feather. Yet the face that remained close told Pei Yule it wasn’t an illusion.

“………………..”

He froze on the spot, staring at the slowly straightening Huo Juan. It felt like a screw had come loose in his brain; he couldn’t think. …What did Huo Juan just do to him?

As if thinking he wasn’t confused enough, the Alpha raised his hand and rubbed the spot on the cheek he’d just touched with his thumb. His voice was deep, like a whisper in the ear:

“That is the answer to why I’m unwilling. Do you understand now?”

Huo Juan paused slightly, then added slowly: “If you don’t want me to take the medicine, then I won’t.”

Pei Yule didn’t understand. In his twenty-one years of life, he’d never had a girlfriend. Although he had a crush on a “class flower” back in his old life, he just thought she was cute like a small animal—she was his type. He never thought of pursuing her because he found dating troublesome, having seen his sister’s complicated break-ups and make-ups.

However, no matter how uninterested he was, he had still thought about what his future partner would be like. His ideal partner was definitely a tiny, cute woman—a small face, doe eyes, incredibly adorable. Because she’d be petite, he could pick her up and kiss her—

Not this man who had to look down to kiss him and was taller than he was!

Pei Yule truly never thought this Alpha… had those feelings for him.

Wait… if you like someone, you should act more like it! He hadn’t thought in this direction at all! Where did he act like he liked him??

—Every contact with you makes me lose control.

That sentence suddenly flashed through Pei Yule’s mind, leaving him speechless. No, who said he hadn’t shown it? What a pig-head I am, he thought. No wonder Xu Yanxi warned him that some things were better left unknown because he might not be able to handle it. Xu Yanxi must have known long ago; for an Alpha, someone who can make them lose control is someone of ultimate importance.

So, Huo Juan had already shown it through his actions. He really… liked him.

Pei Yule began to avoid Huo Juan.

This was different from when he dodged him to avoid being taken to the empty classroom. This time, he avoided Huo Juan because he simply didn’t want to face him. Unfortunately, they were in the same class and sat next to each other; they saw each other constantly. Short of transferring schools, there was no way to escape.

But even if escape was hard in the same room, he had to try. He had no choice.

Fortunately, Huo Juan—whether he was giving him time to process or something else—maintained his attitude of never bothering him during class. He just slept face-down on the desk. And once class was over…

Pei Yule never made eye contact. The moment the bell rang, he would bolt out the door faster than the teacher and run next door to find Fei Yisa.

His behavior was so obviously evasive that even Fei Yisa from a different class noticed. There was no helping it; it had been going on for days. Pei Yule came to find him after every single period and lingered until the next bell rang, only slipping back into his classroom right as the teacher appeared in the hallway. If he couldn’t see something was wrong, he’d be a ghost.

“Confession is the best policy; resistance is futile.”

At lunch, seeing Pei Yule arrive early again, Fei Yisa slammed a sweet milk tea from the cafeteria down in front of him with a “thud.” A few drops of light brown liquid splashed out. Fei Yisa knit his brows, putting on a fierce—yet gossipy—expression.

“What is with you lately? You’re coming to my class way too often.”

Pei Yule slumped over the desk like a corpse, his tone ghostly. “I like your class. I want to transfer to your class…” Although Huo Juan hadn’t come to school today for some reason, he had gotten used to being here. He felt this class suited him better; he wanted to stay.

“That won’t be easy.”

After all, the ratio of Alphas, Betas, and Omegas in each class was set. For Pei Yule to transfer, he’d have to find a Beta willing to swap, get both classes to accept the change, and convince the teachers to let them take a transfer test. In short, it was a massive headache. “If people could just swap classes whenever they wanted, the school would be in chaos,” were the Principal’s exact words.

Pei Yule remained silent. You think I haven’t tried? He had run to the teacher immediately, only to be rejected for those very reasons. He didn’t give up right away; he’d asked the Betas in Fei Yisa’s class if anyone wanted to swap—

No one did. Out of the 12 Betas in Fei Yisa’s class, not a single one was willing to swap with him!

Pei Yule asked all 12 and was rejected every time, but he still didn’t give up. If the Betas in Fei Yisa’s class wouldn’t budge, what about other senior classes? Unfortunately, same result. Everyone was satisfied with their current class, and since it was their senior year, no one wanted to move and have to adapt to a new environment.

Pei Yule sighed, feeling deeply depressed.

“Seriously, what’s going on?” Fei Yisa dropped the gossip act and nudged his arm. “Are you avoiding Huo Juan?”

This Omega’s intuition was terrifying. Pei Yule shot him a listless glance. He opened his mouth, but he simply couldn’t bring himself to talk about his situation with Huo Juan. He just buried his head in his arms and continued to mope.

Looking at Fei Yisa, he finally remembered that this world was still a book. Although the character personalities were completely different from the ones he’d read about, the background was ABO. Men could naturally be together, so while Huo Juan’s feelings shocked him, the issue for people here wouldn’t be “we’re both men,” but rather the secondary gender.

Wait, an Alpha-Beta romance isn’t quite right, isn’t it usually Alpha-Omega…?

—Male Betas who pair with Alphas can also reproduce, though the probability is extremely low.

Suddenly, a piece of trivia about Betas from the guidebook flashed through Pei Yule’s mind. He jerked upright—

“No, no, no!”

Pei Yule bolted up, nearly knocking over his chair and startling Fei Yisa.

“What is it?”

Shen Pin reached out to catch the falling chair just in time. He and Fei Yisa both looked at the alternating red and white flush on Pei Yule’s face, sensing his emotions were in extreme turmoil.

Seeing him like this, Fei Yisa became worried: “What is actually wrong?” His face looks like a firework…

Pei Yule grabbed Fei Yisa and asked with a dead-serious face: “I remember, Betas and Betas are the ones who are supposed to be…”

Knock, knock. Two knocks sounded at the door. Everyone looked over to see two unfamiliar students standing there. One of them looked straight at Pei Yule’s group and said politely: “Sorry to interrupt. Is it a good time to bother you?”

Pei Yule was confused; he didn’t recognize these two. He had no memory of their faces.

Fei Yisa could tell he didn’t recognize them and reminded him: “That’s Lin Nianchun, the Student Council Secretary, and Cheng Po, the Committee Chair.”

Student Council people? Were they looking for them? Pei Yule was puzzled. Seeing they hadn’t refused, Lin Nianchun flipped through a list and took three sets of clothes from Cheng Po’s hands. “It’s about the outfits for tomorrow’s Winter Gala. You haven’t picked yours up yet, so the President asked us to deliver them.”

Fei Yisa was surprised to see three sets. He looked at Pei Yule. “Le-le, you’re going to the Winter Gala too? You should have said something! I thought you weren’t interested since I never heard you talk about it.”

“No, wait…”

Pei Yule had asked Qiao Shengmo to cancel his application, but he’d forgotten about it afterward. It made sense he didn’t recall, since for some reason, Qiao Shengmo hadn’t returned to school since his Heat incident.

Now, it was already the eve of the event and the suits were made. He felt a bit guilty and said to Lin Nianchun: “I’m sorry, I’m not attending.”

Lin Nianchun looked slightly surprised, then said apologetically: “It’s too late to cancel. It’s already registered with the school. An unexcused absence will result in a deduction of ‘Conduct Points,’ which will affect your university evaluations.”

Why does this school have so many weird point deductions!

Pei Yule just wanted to graduate peacefully and go to college; he tried to avoid anything that would lower his evaluations. Since Fei Yisa was going anyway, he’d just go as a tag-along, eat some food, and head home.

That was what he thought, but Pei Yule soon regretted participating. Because Huo Juan… was also attending this gala.